Virginity

So I've decided to start a blog, since  I think at least one point in my life should have some sense made in it, and my blogger virginity has been taken.

This is going to be a place where I am completely open.  I will try and keep that promise for as long as possible, try and have one thing, just one, where I can open up completely and vomit all the details that I think about no matter how jumbled they are, and of the people I meet.  Maybe I can start getting some order.

To at least warn those who will be reading this, I do partake in drugs.  I am 18 years old.  I am a senior.  I have few true good friends.  My best friend, well I am currently having a lot of mixed feelings about a special friend of mine, who not only introduces me to new highs and drugs, but has currently helped me stop my feelings of lonliness and has been a comfortable shoulder to lean on.  My feelings for him are currently in a whirlwind right now, not being helped with the massive amounts of drugs that we use, so what happens with that will be told in depth at a later date.  I can't be completely sure if he actually feels something or is just using me as a respite until he leaves or finds another girl.  Things will pan out as they pan out, though.  I'm excited to see how things turn out :)

It's sort of funny, I'm an 18 year old addict who doesn't have any real  love or life, and yet I still smile and call the world beautiful :)