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Ahh, so things have started to slow down it seems and my euphoria from life is winding down.
This weekend didn't go quite on par with the rest of the weekends thus far, mostly because this is the first weekend in a long train of weekends that I didn't spend all of with TheEnigma. Instead, I opted to hang with Cheapskate. I give him this name because he is very cheap, and everytime we hang he expects everyone else around him to provide, never throwing down/matching, or bitching when he has to. This was a mistake on my part, but he had told me that he wanted to hang out with me, so I did. However, I quickly realized that he only wanted me to help him find drugs, made even plainer that half an hour after I got him a discount bag, he dropped me off at my car.
Anyway, that was saturday. Friday I managed to hang out with TheEnigma for a while, though felt sorely out of place, even moreso then the last time. This time I could feel something going on between him and DreadLock's girlfriend, SnowWhite. They had slept together before, without Dreadlock's knowledge. I wanted to blend into the background and not be noticed when I saw them exchanging glances, and how he made sure to be sitting next to her as spliffs were being passed. However, I think they noticed, because he slipped me a xanex that he'd stolen from Loyalty's stash, and bought me cigarettes and food. Regardless of that, I still insisted that I had to leave before the next party was to start. (the energy I felt off TheEnigma and SnowWhite is what drove me to leaving.) I didn't give him a kiss goodbye or a hug or anything, I just left...I kind of feel bad now...
When I returned home sunday, I saw 5 missed calls on my cell phone. (I forget the damn thing so much it's pointless to even have).
They were from none other then BasketballStar...my ex of exactly a year ago. He'd moved to Florida on a basketball scholarship, and we had decided to end our relationship of 3 years before he left. It was definitely one of the hardest things I'd ever done, but it had to happen. I haven't even thought about him in around 5 months, and hearing his voice flooded all those emtotions back. I called him back, and we caught up on each other's lives. Apparently he'd gotten injured and wasn't able to play anymore, and he was contemplating coming back to our hometown and seeing his family.
And me. He said I'd been on his mind day in and day out the entire time we haven't talked. I felt horrible. I hadn't thought of him once in almost half a year...
I don't really know what else to say, and my oatmeal is finished. Later days...
This weekend didn't go quite on par with the rest of the weekends thus far, mostly because this is the first weekend in a long train of weekends that I didn't spend all of with TheEnigma. Instead, I opted to hang with Cheapskate. I give him this name because he is very cheap, and everytime we hang he expects everyone else around him to provide, never throwing down/matching, or bitching when he has to. This was a mistake on my part, but he had told me that he wanted to hang out with me, so I did. However, I quickly realized that he only wanted me to help him find drugs, made even plainer that half an hour after I got him a discount bag, he dropped me off at my car.
Anyway, that was saturday. Friday I managed to hang out with TheEnigma for a while, though felt sorely out of place, even moreso then the last time. This time I could feel something going on between him and DreadLock's girlfriend, SnowWhite. They had slept together before, without Dreadlock's knowledge. I wanted to blend into the background and not be noticed when I saw them exchanging glances, and how he made sure to be sitting next to her as spliffs were being passed. However, I think they noticed, because he slipped me a xanex that he'd stolen from Loyalty's stash, and bought me cigarettes and food. Regardless of that, I still insisted that I had to leave before the next party was to start. (the energy I felt off TheEnigma and SnowWhite is what drove me to leaving.) I didn't give him a kiss goodbye or a hug or anything, I just left...I kind of feel bad now...
When I returned home sunday, I saw 5 missed calls on my cell phone. (I forget the damn thing so much it's pointless to even have).
They were from none other then BasketballStar...my ex of exactly a year ago. He'd moved to Florida on a basketball scholarship, and we had decided to end our relationship of 3 years before he left. It was definitely one of the hardest things I'd ever done, but it had to happen. I haven't even thought about him in around 5 months, and hearing his voice flooded all those emtotions back. I called him back, and we caught up on each other's lives. Apparently he'd gotten injured and wasn't able to play anymore, and he was contemplating coming back to our hometown and seeing his family.
And me. He said I'd been on his mind day in and day out the entire time we haven't talked. I felt horrible. I hadn't thought of him once in almost half a year...
I don't really know what else to say, and my oatmeal is finished. Later days...
posted by Minx at 4:39 PM
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