I feel like I'm swimming..
Not good. This allergy medication is really fucking with me, and I have work to make up since I decided to not go to school today. At least this crap is making me less sneezy/nose itchy, I did quite a number on it this weekend...Grr.
In what probably isn't any real news, TheEnigma's still in my mind...I'm just so tired, that no matter when I try to study or focus on anything for more then 4 seconds, he floats into my thoughts...
In good news, however, I haven't smoked a cigarette in around 2 days, which is surprising since I didn't actually quit. I just decided to not buy another pack (since money was needed in other areas of my life anyway) and just haven't bothered to pick up another pack. It's been amazing, since I haven't felt the urge to buy them. TheEnigma bet me I couldn't quit last week, I can't wait to rub it in his face this weekend :). I just have to make sure I don't accept any when they're offered round. I know he'll try to, tricky bastard...but I'll win.
Life has been treating me a tad better as of late..well, I skipped school and got a lot of sleep today, at any rate. I went to visit TheEnigma at work...he works at a local music shop, but he pretty much ignored me today, busily trying to find PsychoNot's number...PartyHardy was there, he works there on random days, we chatted for a bit before I had to leave.
I can't help but reflect on this certain thing that happened last sunday....it was late, Loyalty, TheEnigma, and I were just chilling at TheEnigma's pad for a while since we didn't really want the weekend to end. As Loyalty was putzing around TheEnigma's room/basement, TheEnigma and I were just curled up on the couch, me laying on top of him with my head on his stomach. It was comfortable and yet weird, since it was obvious we could only show affection for each other when alone, and yet Loyalty was there, and he didn't mind. We layed there watching Scarface, with Loyalty reciting lines without being near the tv. TheEnigma and I kissed furiously when Loyalty stepped out of the room, the tension having been built for a while. It was nice...and then Loyalty said the strangest thing. TheEnigma and I got excited in a plan to bring the drug of choice in Scarface back to our hometown, and my job being to find prices and people. As Loyalty is about to leave, he says "You two lovebirds are going to end up getting married, and being the drug lords of *******." He said it again, the lovebirds thing, as he officially left. TheEnigma says and has told me before that he could never get married, and to be quite honest, I doubt I ever could either. But he just looked me in the eyes and smiled, without saying anything, and we just hugged for what seemed like hours.
We talked later, about random bullshit, and the topic came up as to his leaving for college. It was strange...he seemed so excited to go, and yet now he says how much he doesn't want to...I don't try and get ahead of myself and say that it's because of me. I'd bet anything it's because he's been getting raises at his job, since business is booming, and how easy his life is here...but the possibility of him staying...I don't want to jinx it, and I don't want to set myself up for a fall...but I can't lie, it'd make my dreams come true.
Hyde--no need to refrain from advice giving, I'd say you're more qualified then you think you are right now. Give yourself some more credit :)
In what probably isn't any real news, TheEnigma's still in my mind...I'm just so tired, that no matter when I try to study or focus on anything for more then 4 seconds, he floats into my thoughts...
In good news, however, I haven't smoked a cigarette in around 2 days, which is surprising since I didn't actually quit. I just decided to not buy another pack (since money was needed in other areas of my life anyway) and just haven't bothered to pick up another pack. It's been amazing, since I haven't felt the urge to buy them. TheEnigma bet me I couldn't quit last week, I can't wait to rub it in his face this weekend :). I just have to make sure I don't accept any when they're offered round. I know he'll try to, tricky bastard...but I'll win.
Life has been treating me a tad better as of late..well, I skipped school and got a lot of sleep today, at any rate. I went to visit TheEnigma at work...he works at a local music shop, but he pretty much ignored me today, busily trying to find PsychoNot's number...PartyHardy was there, he works there on random days, we chatted for a bit before I had to leave.
I can't help but reflect on this certain thing that happened last sunday....it was late, Loyalty, TheEnigma, and I were just chilling at TheEnigma's pad for a while since we didn't really want the weekend to end. As Loyalty was putzing around TheEnigma's room/basement, TheEnigma and I were just curled up on the couch, me laying on top of him with my head on his stomach. It was comfortable and yet weird, since it was obvious we could only show affection for each other when alone, and yet Loyalty was there, and he didn't mind. We layed there watching Scarface, with Loyalty reciting lines without being near the tv. TheEnigma and I kissed furiously when Loyalty stepped out of the room, the tension having been built for a while. It was nice...and then Loyalty said the strangest thing. TheEnigma and I got excited in a plan to bring the drug of choice in Scarface back to our hometown, and my job being to find prices and people. As Loyalty is about to leave, he says "You two lovebirds are going to end up getting married, and being the drug lords of *******." He said it again, the lovebirds thing, as he officially left. TheEnigma says and has told me before that he could never get married, and to be quite honest, I doubt I ever could either. But he just looked me in the eyes and smiled, without saying anything, and we just hugged for what seemed like hours.
We talked later, about random bullshit, and the topic came up as to his leaving for college. It was strange...he seemed so excited to go, and yet now he says how much he doesn't want to...I don't try and get ahead of myself and say that it's because of me. I'd bet anything it's because he's been getting raises at his job, since business is booming, and how easy his life is here...but the possibility of him staying...I don't want to jinx it, and I don't want to set myself up for a fall...but I can't lie, it'd make my dreams come true.
Hyde--no need to refrain from advice giving, I'd say you're more qualified then you think you are right now. Give yourself some more credit :)
posted by Minx at 6:11 PM
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